Laser tongued

So I was having my usual whatsapp conversation with one of my gf.

"Wey, what if this January marks the last time I celebrate my birthday? Worst still, kalau aku taksempat celebrate birthday? Huaaaa takut!"

Here come the mak lampir,

'Wey, Tunku Jalil fought his cancer for more than one year up to his last breath kot. Kau kena diagnose cyst je kenapa kau give up on negative thoughts cepat sangat!'

Tadaaaa! Meet my gf. Most of my girlfriends are like that. Konghaja. Tapi konghaja while motivating. I'm thankful. Being tested with small test, but blessed with amazing people around me. Alhamdulillah!




P/S: I bet what they said was true, that cool people attracts cool crowds. Now that you know my crowds are cool, you already know how cool I am ✌

Will Not Delete

I would not delete any old post in this blog of mine.

Even though the post was deeply about me & my ex-relationship.

Even though the post was on how bad I hate my classmate that we are in good terms now.

And so many more. haha!

Those would help to remind me on how stupid I was for being in love. How crazy I was when I'm mad at some random people.

Those could be my mirror to reflect myself on. To not keep on going back to the same spot.

Toodles, readers!

Starting and Ending 2015 with Sad Stories

Started 2015 with a break up. Ending 2015 with myself being diagnosed with health problem.

So this is what happened yesterday. I was diagnosed with ovarian cyst, two spot inside my ovary. Sad huh? Yeah. I thought the rising cost of living is sad enough, until the doctor told me this.

Well to be exact, the one on my left ovary is 6.2cm X 6.5cm. Yeap! That is huge enough! No wonder la it was so hard for me to get flat tummy. Because I've always had these two inside! (K, alasan je :b)

And another cyst is 2.5cm X 2 point something. Doctor Wan Kamariah, is not a specialist in gynaecology. Hence she refers me to Dr Ravi from Gleneagles hospital. Nasib baiklah Gleneagles dekat gila dengan rumah. Tapi the appointment is only on next Wednesday!

And so, today is my second day living as a patient diagnosed with cyst. It is so depressing that I just cant... Well I tried to pretend like I was okay lah in the office today. But whenever I didnt made any interaction with my colleague, I would end up termenung, stressed out by the fact that I need to undergo a surgery, stressed out by the killing pain inside. It feels so weird. Like, you wanna be your usual cheerful self but you just can't.

Now I'm patiently waiting for next Wednesday to arrive and for the specialist to consult me on when is the right time to undergo the operation. Sad right? Toodles, readers!

1st December

It's the last month of the year.

I started this month with a bad news. Or maybe the hikmah will come later.

I is sad. I is veri sad.

My fear for years, is finally here.

I'm a bad hamba Allah. I shouldn't be complaining because I know Allah chose me because he missed me, missed my rants on the sajadah.

Thank you very much for your concrete support ayah. And Ibu. And Bell. And Nabby. And sisters.

Basically everyone who knew it today, were giving so much support. They didnt look at me with that gaze of "Habislah perempuan. Nak mati dah engkau."

Syukur, Alhamdulillah.

Tapi...... my very first operation :(


May Allah ease everything...